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Wednesday, January 21, 2009
I remembered someone told me 男人流血不流泪. I have to agree to a large extend but there will be exceptions. The last time i remembered myself shedding a tear was in lower secondary when i am so frustrated with my strict mother and during the whole argument session? how ironic was that. haas. Ever since im in national service for the past 1 yr plus in service. I have experienced alot and the BMT life that i had was just so intolerable but i did not shed a tear. So what has happened in camp recently to one of the guy in my battery has shocked most of us. As a sergent, we cannot watch him fall deeper into the mess he had already gotten in. The matter was brought up to direct superior and action was taken. He apologized to the battery of what he had done and so on and so fourth. Eventually he knew that actually he had been given alot of chances and somehow broke down. I am here blogging is not because i want to humilate whoever or whatever. I just want to remind myself that no matter how old you get. No one can be a SUPERHERO forever, even heroes need to have a break.  Raindrops keep fallin' on my head And just like the guy whose feet are too big for his bed Nothin' seems to fit Those raindrops are fallin' on my head, they keep fallin' So I just did me some talkin' to the sun And I said I didn't like the way he got things done Sleepin' on the job Those raindrops are fallin' on my head, they keep fallin' But there's one thing I know The blues they send to meet me won't defeat me It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me Raindrops keep fallin' on my head But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red Cryin's not for me 'Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin' Because I'm free Nothin's worryin' me It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me Raindrops keep fallin' on my head But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red Cryin's not for me 'Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin' Because I'm free Nothin's worryin' me  Till further notice.xoxo, Gossip Boy. Tuesday, January 20, 2009
 I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in Cos I got time while she got freedom Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even Her best days will be some of my worst She finally met a man that's gonna put her first While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven... even... no What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you, And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok I'm falling to pieces, yeah, I'm falling to pieces They say bad things happen for a reason But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving And when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven even... no What am I gonna to do when the best part of me was always you, And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok I'm falling to pieces, yeah, I'm falling to pieces, yeah, I'm falling to pieces (One still in love while the other ones leaving) I'm falling to pieces (Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven) Oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain You took your suitcase, I took the blame. Now I'm try'na make sense of what little remains ooh Cos you left me with no love and no love to my name. I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in Cos I got time while she got freedom Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break No it don't break No it don't break even no What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you and What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok (Oh glad your okay now) I'm falling to pieces yeah (Oh I'm glad your okay) I'm falling to pieces yeah (One still in love while the other ones leaving) I'm falling to pieces (Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven) Oh it don't break even no Oh it don't break even no Oh it don't break even no  sometimes i do wonder if i ever have a second chance to every mistake or path that i have choosen. life is just not as wonderful as it seems anymore. BUT YES, im leaving singapore for good. BYE PM LEE / SM LEE. i do not wish to hear any of ur politics anymore. Thursday, January 15, 2009
its been a pretty bad year for me so far for 2009.Everything is not going on smoothly ? 2008 ended with a WOW. 2009 started with a BOO. how contradicting. yes i am going overseas soon and i have yet to pack or do anything to my duffel bag and stuffs. oh my god... i miss the time where i can just go overseas without me thinking wad do i need. wad shld i bring. i guess pretty much my life has been so pampered and laid out so straightforward that i start to miss out alot on independent movement. its only been a yr plus that i have been very independent ? Yes army does make guys GROW UP and think for their future and future in singapore is something very vague. its something i dont seem to see myself in. its something i have yet to be very sure of. its something i am working towards everyday from now onwards.  Talking about army. Its a military organization. Its the first time i really felt that the lower ranking you are the more vulnerable you are to not being able to defend yourself. Oh. and to someone out there. PLEASE. i repeat. PLEASE take a look at the bigger picture??   know what i mean ? bigger picture please. Tuesday, January 13, 2009
 It's been the longest winter without you I didn't know where to turn to See somehow I can't forget you After all that we've been through Going coming thought I heard a knock Who's there no one Thinking that I deserve it Now I realize that I really didn't know If you didn't notice you mean everything Quickly I'm learning to love again All I know is I'mma be ok [Chorus:] Thought I couldn't live without you It's gonna hurt when it heals too It'll all get better in time Even though I really love you I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to It'll all get better in time I couldn't turn on the TV Without something there to remind me Was it all that easy To just put aside your feelings If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh Hurt my feelings but that's the path I'll believe in And I know time will heal it If you didn't notice boy you mean everything Quickly I'm learning to love again All I know is I'mma be ok [Chorus:] Thought I couldn't live without you It's gonna hurt when it heals too It'll all get better in time Even though I really love you I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to It'll all get better in time Since there's no more you and me It's time I let you go So I can be free And live my life how it should be No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you Yes I will [Chorus: x2] Thought I couldn't live without you It's gonna hurt when it heals too It'll all get better in time Even though I really love you I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to (yes I do) It'll all get better in time  As im listening to this song. I cant help but thinking of my past with you? Although we may not have a strong r/s in the first place. But we have quite a few "first time". yes i know. it sounds so sexually but im referring to a different mindset that i have grown from my very last r/s. Yes. I am no longer the overly possessive boyfriend. i am no longer the flirtatious boyfriend. i am no longer the immature thinking boyfriend. i PLAN for the future. i take things seriously ? ? i am making myself seem so old and so bhb to some may feel ?? but i didnt realised all these until i have recently taken some time to actually sit down and reflect on my actions/behaviour ? i am just no longer the same old playful boon ? ok a part of me still wants to enjoy life as much. But i know for sure. PAIN IS GAIN.  i don need someone of senior in rank but yet junior in terms of service to tell me what's right and wrong. i have my own judgement. i may have been bad on the tone but that is because you have rude and impolite to someone who is not obliged to help in any single way. oh btw. i have also really understand what it means when someone says abt DUAL personality ? you may have not showed how u felt in front of me. but after such an incident. im glad TRUE COLOURS does show.   Saturday, April 12, 2008
and so i was riding in my frens WRX STI yest night. for the very first time i felt the power that i have been earning so much all along the way since i was even like wad.. 5yrs old ?? aint no joke man. my ultimate dream is still to be a top pro car racer~!! too bad i am in singapore where illegal modifications to cars are not allowed. omg. such a wet blanket.tt aside. enjoy the pics ? we own the road :)   
Sunday, March 30, 2008
alright so this week been hectic ??lool btw im so gonna kill M*K soon man. y am i always doin all those shiTs ?? for someone whos prob dead ? doesnt matter.. lool and so i went for youth service with shaun. as usual im kinda late.. haha with a reason still ... haha wads been said and discussed was true to wad i had experienced and believe Truth will guide you into right decision Truth will show you whats worth loving for Truth will reveal whose acceptance matters Truth will show you someone's true nature Truth will rate you from devastating consequences Truth will empower you to stand firm in your convictions *enlighten me if i typed it wrongly* Currently i juz want to have something to lighten off my mind and so i attend church services that shaun has been trying hard.. its not that becoz i have nthing to do and so i attended. but i need to noe wads my life going to be. wad do i acty believe in? wad did i did wrong in life? and so much has been taught to me since i was young. wad did i followed and wad did i not and totally forgotten? prob church services may enlighten me someway somehow? everything i have been working so hard for. wads worth and wads not. i have no idea but somehow the short discussions about Power of Truth - Revelations i find true to a huge extent ? yea and i will continue to find out more when i attend more ? shaun: buddy i may and may not accept Jesus. but if i find it true engh i will devote myself. i hope i wont be rushed into such decisions. and so i STOP AND STARE This town is colder now I think it's sick of us It's time to make our move I'm shakin off the rust I've got my heart set on anywhere but here I'm staring down myself, counting up the years Steady hands, just take the wheel And every glance is killing me Time to make one last appeal for the life I lead Stop and stare I think I'm moving but I go nowhere Yeah I know that everyone gets scared But I've become what I can't be oh Stop and stare You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there And you'd give anything to get what's fair But fair ain't what you really need Oh, can u see what I see They're tryin to come back all my senses push Un-tie the weight bags I never thought I could Steady feet, don't fail me now Gonna run till you can't walk But something pulls my focus out And I'm standing down Stop and stare I think I'm moving but I go nowhere Yeah I know that everyone gets scared But I've become what I can't be oh Stop and stare You start to wonder why you're here not there And you'd give anything to get what's fair But fair ain't what you really need Oh, you don't need What u need, what u need Stop and stare I think I'm moving but I go nowhere Yeah I know that everyone gets scared But I've become what I can't be Oh, do u see what I see... Saturday, March 15, 2008
since its the first post and recently i am so greatly affected by this man.. this is juz for funin the states they have PRISON BREAK
and since singapore have the habits for following like America idol - Singapore idol and so on and so fourth.... HENCE, we have our very own TOILET BREAK~!!!
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